wlots "Sempre Piu" (DER-596)

01. Meno
(instrumental)

02. Bitter Lemon
do you miss me. like you say you do? those words don't mean a thing. if you really think things through. do you listen. when i talk to you? is there something on your mind? there's always something on your mind. are you in there? please let me through. i want to be under your skin. i want to get back there, inside. but it's like leather. so hard to break through. i was once under your surface. floating there with you. am i holding you back? you make me feel like everything i say is wrong. like there's something wrong with me. like i can never be enough. i'm sorry if i shut you out. i guess i'm not enough. i'm scared of being alone. i'm terrified of being alone. and do i miss you? like i say i do. we're so quick to judge each other. maybe i'm a disappointment too. and do i need you? like i think i do. i wish that i could make you happy. maybe it is someone else's turn. i wish that i was someone else. i think i've had enough of feeling alone. i feel so alone with you. i wish we could talk it through. there's nothing you can say. nothing you can do. it's unacceptable

03. I Hate My Friends
i'm so done with all my friends. they can't hurt me anymore. i don't deserve love. i don't deserve the love that's shown to me. for all the mistakes that i've made. i don't deserve love. i don't believe in myself. and neither does anyone else. i don't believe in myself. i never did. i'd rather have no friends. i'd rather die alone

04. See You
i see you when i close my eyes. we talk about the time you died

05. My Morii
with the wind in your hair, dust collar-bone. head and taillights on an overexposed highway home. it runs through our rivers, oceans into. with the song on the radio that we listen to. a broken fence, a hidden grove. the city simmers down below. we let the sunlight lick our skin. and like this never happened, i'm forgotten. where is your heartbeat?  the disharmony. we were caged in ribs. never mind, i guess i'll be fine. with the wind in your hair, "are we heading home, or to visit your father?" he lies beneath the city sign, alone and out of time. with the wind underneath, do you feel alone? flying solo over pastures that we once called home. across the rivers, oceans so blue. there's only static on the radio, i'm missing you. where is your heartbeat? the disharmony. we were caged in ribs. never mind, i guess i'll be fine. i guess i'll be fine. how could you forget. (wake up) how could you forget. (i'm dreaming)

06. I Know You Know
lying next to you in your bed. and you ask me if i love you. i tell you the words you want me too. but i know you know

07. Backwash
i'm not lying when i say i want to be you. i've been wanting to be all of you. because there are so many fates. i wish you would just leave without saying goodbye. friends, they all say the same thing, or laugh. but i know where the beginning is, the middle and the end. and then a new begging. and then the rest of this life. i want to blow up my head between your hands. i wish you were too feeble to leave. i wish i was strong enough to end what i can't. i can breathe deeply, i can pant. and i can breathe slowly. and with my back against the floor i can close my eyes and tumble. and in the nighttime. when they light the stars. i think to myself that i am not anyone. no one. nothing. and the next day passes like the previous

08. Learning To Love Myself
there's a bunch of things i've got to do. there are secrets and there's solitude. is it possible to feel more alone? and i've been trying hard not to drink. but it's impossible to me. i think about how you make me thirstier. i've always had this thirst for her. i guess i never really tried hard enough. and i guess that's part of why i've always felt like a failure. i somehow always manage to fail her. i've been trying hard not to drink. because i got done with feeling incomplete. at least that how i feel about everything. i don't feel a thing for anything. i guess i never really tried hard enough. and i guess that's part of why i've always felt like a failure. i somehow always manage to fail her. i've been trying to calm my spinning thoughts. but they keep swinging back and around. and i've been trying to make these visions stop. but they are always around. i don't feel a thing for anything

09. Chiasso
what did you expect? how can you be surprised? because you never listen. so what do you know, about me?

10. Nothing Ever Happens
i said "dad can i call you back?" "because something happened here and i've gotta check things out" hung up the phone. as the ambulance arrived. bright flashing lights. and screaming sirens broke the silence now. rushed from their cars. in through the gate. to the backyard. where they found his body on the ground. they put a blanket over his body after checking for his pulse. but he had lost his breath the last time. there was no hope. and on a balcony, five stories up they found a ladder. leaned against a handrail next to a pillbox. just as empty as his lungs, never to be refilled again. he threw himself over the railing, couldn't deal with the chest-pain. i took one last glance at the blanket as someone knocked on the front door. a man in a uniform informed us "nothing happened here at all" nothing happened here at all? i said "dad can i call you back?" "because something happened here and i've gotta check things out"

11. Adagio
(instrumental)